Right now - at this present moment - as I sit in my private jungle garden in Playa Del Carmen, MX, I can truly say that I am the happiest I’ve ever been in my adult life.
There are no more caveats. No prerequisites.
I am simply happy. Genuinely. Unflinchingly. Unapologetically. More than that, though, I’m damn proud of myself for making it here.
I knew I was happy when I stopped always looking for the other shoe to drop and instead started to look for how it always gets better.
After years of therapy, I know that “waiting for the other shoe to drop” feeling is anxiety and though I experience occasional bouts of it, the experiences are more rare than I can ever remember as an adult.
I think after Daddy died, it really started. Trauma...